Can't do it.
I've never been more terrified about something I've wanted so badly in my life.
Literally crying at my desk because I want it, but I know it's terrible for me. And I can't do it.
Unless it works out for us. Do I have to trust him? Do I just trust him that it's going to work out?
That what he's asking will work out for both of us as long as I'm just being true to myself?
I'M SO FUCKING SCARED.
